He called me yesterday

Emotional Wellbeing
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Small win today

So my 8yo called me yesterday. Just out of nowhere. Said he missed our Saturday morning pancakes and could we do them next weekend.

I’m trying not to read too much into it but… it’s the first time he’s initiated contact in 4 months. Since this whole mess started.

My lawyer said don’t get too excited yet, document the call, keep expectations realistic. I get it. But damn it felt good to hear his little voice asking for something normal. Something that was just ours.

Made pancakes for myself this morning just because. Probably sounds stupid but I needed to remember what it felt like to flip them the way he likes - slightly burnt around the edges.

Not getting ahead of myself here. One phone call doesn’t fix everything. But it’s something right? First time in months I’m not checking my phone every 5 minutes hoping.

Taking it one pancake at a time I guess.

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God, 8 year olds and their pancakes - that hit me right in the chest. My youngest was 7 when he first called asking if we could “do pizza Fridays again like before” and I nearly cried in the middle of Asda.

Saturday morning pancakes, burnt edges and all - that’s pure gold mate. Keep making those pancakes.

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That little voice asking for pancakes - Christ, that would have knocked me sideways too. Seven years here and I still dream about making my daughter her favourite cheese toasties, burnt just how she liked them.

Don’t let anyone tell you not to feel hope from this. Document it, yes, but also just let yourself have that moment of your boy reaching out for something that was yours together.

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8 years old and he remembers exactly how he likes his pancakes - slightly burnt around the edges. That’s everything right there.