Posted 2:17am
cant sleep again so here I am. court date is tomorrow morning at 9am and im sitting here going over everything for the hundredth time
my lawyer Sarah says we have a solid case but honestly the whole system feels rigged. three months since I’ve seen Emma (8) and Luke (6) and tomorrow the judge gets to decide if I get supervised visits or if my ex gets to keep playing games
what kills me is Luke’s birthday was last week. Eight years old and I wasn’t there. I sent a card to my own mother-in-law’s house hoping she’d give it to him but who knows. Emma used to call me every night before bed and now she won’t even take my calls
documented everything like you guys said. got screenshots of my ex cancelling visits last minute, photos of the gifts I bought that were never delivered, even recorded the voicemail where Emma says “daddy I dont want to see you anymore” in this weird flat voice that doesn’t sound like her at all
$12,800 in legal fees so far and counting. my savings account looks like a crime scene but what choice do I have
the thing that gets me is I was the one doing bath time and bedtime stories and helping with homework every single night before this mess started. now im treated like some stranger who might hurt them.
tomorrow either changes everything or destroys what little hope I have left.
sorry for rambling. this place is the only spot where people actually get it