Subject: Court hearing delayed AGAIN and I’m just… done
Sitting in my car outside the courthouse in downtown Sacramento and I could literally scream. We were supposed to have our custody hearing today - the one I’ve been waiting THREE MONTHS for - and my ex’s lawyer files some bullshit motion yesterday asking for another continuance. Judge grants it like it’s nothing.
Another six weeks. Six more weeks of seeing Emma every other weekend while her dad gets to play house with his new girlfriend who she now calls “bonus mom” (I threw up a little typing that).
My daughter is 9 and she used to call me every night before bed. Now when I try to call it goes straight to voicemail or she’s “too busy with homework” which is code for dad standing right there making sure she doesn’t talk to me. Last weekend she asked why I “abandoned” her when she was little… I was literally the primary caregiver until the divorce. I changed every diaper, did every middle of the night feeding, drove her to every doctor appointment.
$32,000 in legal fees and counting. My lawyer keeps saying “document everything” but what’s the point when judges just rubber stamp whatever delays the other side wants?
I miss my little girl so much it makes my chest hurt. She used to climb into my bed Saturday mornings and we’d watch cartoons. Now I wake up alone and remember I only get fragments of her childhood.
Sorry for the rambling. Had to get it out somewhere where people actually get it.